My heart hammered against my chest, as I watched him, hating and loving it as well. My dark eyes were wide with frantic emotions. He looked up and I hurriedly drop my lashes over my eyes afraid of letting him see what effect he had on me. “We should go to Seychelles sometime later.” I said huskily. “when you are absolutely fine Marc.” He gave me a long look in his dark eyes and said.” I will recover much faster if I go somewhere and have you for myself.” I blushed and said pulling away from him. “ I have to go.” And ran to the door and his eyes followed me, narrowing dark eyes with anger. “Come back, Carmen !” He said sharply but I ran out pretending not to hear my body trembling. I went to see Cathy straight from the hospital. Mathias was waiting for me outside and drove me towards the Garcia house which belonged to Cathy. I spent a lot of time there, after our marriage. And I must say it's awkward coming here. Cathy was sitting in the living room and resting. when I got inside she got up and came to kiss me. I brushed her cheek against mine and groaned. “ Cathy, do you know that the doctor said he can leave the hospital soon ?” Cathy smiled her eyes gently. “Would you like some Tea Carmen?" I nodded. I really needed one to calm myself down. Cathy rang her housekeeper and she appeared. “Sit down darling,” Cathy said as the housekeeper vanished with her request. Mathias went towards his room excusing himself. I knew he was juggling between his work and taking care of Marc. He must be tired. I looked at Cathy desperately.” Listen to me Cathy he wants to go to Seychelles.” “What a good idea! I'm sure he'll recover faster if he goes there. “ She was unmoved and it was obvious that she had not yet seen the implications. “Once he is home he must be told, Cathy,” I said staring at her, my face determined. “Told what? Cathy settled herself on the chair beside me and looked at me innocently. And I tried to control my temper. “You know what I mean, he must be told about the divorce that is the reason why I have come to Milan. I need to go back home and return to my son Cathy. I've done what you wanted me to do now he is much better.” Cathy took my hand and said. “Why Carmen ?” I stared at her and said. "You know very well why I can't go on with this Carmen. I am no longer with him and sooner or later he has to know that. And once he recovers his memories we will both be in an awkward situation after all we had not parted on good terms." “Of course sooner or later,” Cathy said softly. “ But not now Carmen not yet.” I kept staring at her. “Can't you see that the situation is impossible for me? I am at the end, pretending all day to go there and see him, lying to him. I feel like an imposter.” “You are keeping him happy,” Cathy said. “My dear, it would be so much safer to let him recover his memory by himself don't you see? Now that he's stronger, it can't belong.” Her voice saddened and she continued. “It isn't easy for me either you know remembering to pretend that my husband is still alive talking about him as if he were there. I love my husband dearly and it hurts but I love my son too and he should not be upset, while he's still weak." “Cathy listens to me I can't go to Seychelles with him.” I burst out fiercely. “I can't go Cathy I am no longer with him if you want me to stay with him I can stay at the Villa in Piemonte for some time, but I can't go anywhere further than that,” I told her sternly. I don't want to play around like that. “You think your fiancée might object?" Lydia watched my expressions as she spoke. My blank book betrayed me and the color on my face rose, as I met the amusement in Cathy’s eyes. I got up to move out when the housekeeper returned with a tray. Cathy said softly holding my wrist and smiling at me. “Sit down my dear. “ When we were alone again I sipped the tea slowly without knowing, what she was doing, unaware of the excellent taste. My eyes were bright as I looked at Cathy she had always been an excellent hostess and knew how to make you relaxed. After a while, I looked at her. And I thought about something and the realization hit me after a few seconds. And I wondered how could I have been so naïve. “When Marc does recover his memory what's he going to think? It will look as if ... “ I broke off not daring to say what was in my mind. Marc might imagine I had left at the chance to be with him again and that stung. I could not tolerate the thought that he might raise those black sardonic eyes with amusement at the idea that I had wanted to pretend to be his wife once more. “I'll tell him that I begged you to pretend,” Cathy said very softly. "Don't worry Carmen, I owe you that." “You think he will believe that? My teeth came together fiercely and my eyes flamed with anger. “He knows me better.” “But you did it for me,” Cathy murmured in a gentle voice. “Didn't you Carmen ?” I met her dark eyes which were questioning me. “At first yes,” I said softly “But later,” Cathy questioned me with satisfaction in her eyes. I put down my cup and covered my face with my trembling hands. Before Cathy could move to comfort me, I had sprung up, moving away across the room to stand in front of her. “You seem to forget how much reason I have to hate him as ours was hardly some civilized separation Cathy. ”I reminded her. Cathy’s face changed and hardened. “I do not want to discuss what happened Carmen, marriage is a very private affair. And you and Marc were involved together. I can't take anyone's side as I care about both of you. “ I laughed scornfully turning to stare at her hands clenched at my side. “Separation isn't a bit private though is it? You know exactly why I left him.” “Carmen please!” Cathy cried out. I was too angry to stop now I said bitterly. “It happened here in this house remember. I walked in and saw them in bed together.” Cathy flinched her mouth compressed and said. “ I am sorry Carmen ..” “Sorry? “I threw the word at her as if it had been an insult. "Can you imagine what it was like for me? On top of that, he accused me that I was cheating on him when he saw Dave Hart trying to comfort me in our house. He left me Cathy and never came back.” My voice held rattled with pain and anger. “Oh, my dear Carmen,” Cathy murmured. “Could you just forget it if you were me?” I questioned her. It's easy for her to say what about my feelings. “You have never allowed Marc to explain Carmen,” Cathy said in a husky tone. “Neither did he let me explain Cathy. And what could he explain? Why did he make love to Bella on our bed that night? I saw them remember, I had the picture to live with ever since and it put me through a lot of hell believe me. No amount of excuses could make up for that. I had left him for just a few hours and he betrayed me." “Things are never as simple as they seem.” Cathy protested in distressed voice looking at me with dark eyes which held anxious sadness. I laughed bitterly and told her. “That was very simple Cathy.” Cathy's eyes were wincing with pain as she said. “Don't talk like that I hate to hear you speak about it.” “I don't exactly love it myself." I said, "but I won't listen to you playing devil's advocate to Marc. Nothing he could say would remove the scene that I had seen six years ago. I walked out of her house leaving Cathy staring after me with a saddened expression.