"What comes to your mind buddy? It's a miracle that you're the one who called me just to have a drink with me. So what's going on?" I throw deadly glares to Senses. The amount of questions he asked.
"I said I wanted a drink, not a conversation." He laughed and it's damn irritating. He can laugh ... while I am here thinking about my lovely Eerrah. I already miss her, I unconsciously smiled while remembering her face. My love is really beautiful.
"You're smiling, creepy!" Senses stated.
"You're not scared right now Senses, but when I am in normal condition. You look like a a fucking retard talking to me. Why? You aren't doing this in purpose, right?" I said while clenching my jaw.
"It's just that this is the first time that I see you like this. You look like a broken hearted man."
"I am really broken hearted now, someone just took my heart away ... But I can't get mad at her. How cruel is that." I wiped away my tears.
"Damn it buddy, what happened to you? Damn you are crying!" He exlaimed. I just ignored him. I walked straight to my car. I even heard him shouting my name but I can't hear anything and I can't see anything if it's not just Eerrah.
She's smiling widely and happily. She's full of joy and I am contented for that. She's really beautiful. I love her gray eyes and gray hair. I like pinching her pointed nose. I'm addicted to her lips.
I take care of all parts of her body, even with closed eyes. I can draw her face because I have memorized it.
I no longer knew how I got to my own house. I went into my room and turned on all the lights. As soon as the lights spread on the whole room. I just smiled around. All his pictures are hung on the walls. Even my bedsheet and my pillows, his face was placed there.
Even the nightgown I was wearing was there, the ceiling was covered with her pictures also. My walking closet has women's clothes, because I want to bring her here and we will live here happily. I am really obsessed with my baby.
But now- she ran away again. Away from me, doesn't he know how painful that is? Why is she so cruel? But whatever I want to feel, my addiction and love for her dominates. We chose to have each other sides back then but now ... I am alone, hurting.
I lay down on the bed and stared at the smiling pictures of my loved one. She really looks happy for the past 3 years. During those three years, I suddenly asked my self. During those three years, have I been happy in the slightest?
No ... Everyday, every hour, every minute, every second ... It's like I'm being beaten over and over again every time I see him happy as if nothing has happened to us before. I am watching her everyday and I even used Kaliber and Aeiou to bring her to Empires High. But it hurt even more and the excruciating pain I felt when we met that night was even more.
And she can't remember anything, she didn't even realize that my face was familiar. Why is that? Why do I know what's happening to her but her? She doesn't even know my name that time. So I grabbed the chance to be with her again. I owned her and I stole a kiss from her. She doesn't know how much I was longing for her, all my longing I poured into that kiss. I was dying ... I was dying to taste her lips again.
I take care of all parts of her body, even with closed eyes. I can draw her face because I have memorized it.
I no longer knew how I got to my own house. I went into my room and turned on all the lights. As soon as the lights spread on the whole room. I just smiled around. All his pictures are hung on the walls. Even my bedsheet and my pillows, his face was placed there.
Even the nightgown I was wearing was there, the ceiling was covered with her pictures also. My walking closet has women's clothes, because I want to bring her here and we will live here happily. I am really obsessed with my baby.
But now- she ran away again. Away from me, doesn't he know how painful that is? Why is she so cruel? But whatever I want to feel, my addiction and love for her dominates. We chose to have each other sides back then but now ... I am alone, hurting.
To feel her soft lips crushed into mine, to taste her heavenly lips. To feel her soft body against me. I drowned in alcohol all my life to get rid of all the pain, but it all got worse when I saw that his head was getting worse every time we were together. I am slowly dying with the thought of her, forgetting about me. But it hurts more when he remembers everything, because I know he will be even more hurt when he finds out why he forgot everything.
I want to be with him, just touch me. Destiny is so mean to me, if destiny is really only human I will kill him over and over again. He tries to keep my baby away from us, he tries to keep us away while I try to avoid him because I've been fooled a few times. I cried every day when Eerrah was not with me, I wondered what if she had completely forgotten everything? What if his memory never came back?
That's why I owned her that fast. And everyday, my breath became normal. My life has become easier. I was always anxious just to see him. The best feeling in the whole world is when I am hugging her and kissing her. He is mine.
I can't really get over this feeling, this feeling of always wanting her near me. I tried, e. I tried to get him out of my mind while I was still abroad. I am 20 years old that time and she's 17 years old. I thought of looking for another woman because for the whole 17 years, she's the only girl I want.
But I can't find another woman. He is the only one and he is the only one I can see in my mind, his beautiful face, his addictive lips. The angel's voice. I tried, I tried to forget all my connection with him but I was stupid. Who am I kidding? Who am I talking about? Myself ... I only try to fool myself. I myself am hurting because of my stupidity.
Eerrah baby come back to me now. I'm slowly dying baby, I'm slowly dying.
I looked at my cellphone when it suddenly rang. Someone's calling me and I don't care, but when I saw the name of the caller. In no time did I turn over the cellphone and answer the call.
"Baby .. God baby! I miss you so much. I'm sorry for leaving a while ago," I uttered.
"P-Primo." I close my eyes tightly when I hear her voice. She's heavenly, she's the only cure in my broken heart.
"Hi baby. Are you going to come back now? Tell me where you are, I'll petch you my baby." I am really excited. Why did she called me?
"Primo I'm sorry about what I said a while ago." I smiled.
"It's okay baby, even if you kill me, I'll forgive you over and over again. Even if you kill me baby, it's okay with me. I love you baby," I said sweetly. I heard her gasped from the other line so I was nervous. She's crying.
"You're so stupid, b-why did you love me. I don't deserve your love, why are you so stupid." She's really crying and it's breaking my heart.
"Baby don't cry. Does being stupid is bad? Then I'll be a good boy then baby, I promise, don't cry anymore baby."
"Primo .. you're only hurting me more. You're always hurting because of me." I shook my head one after another.
"It's worth it baby, I'll take care of all your pain, won't I? Don't cry anymore, do you want me to go there with you? Maybe that's what's happening to you." When I stood up I suddenly rolled my eyes so I fell down and the picture frame fell on one side of me.
"Primo! What the hell happened to you ?! You bastard! You're drunk! But I'm still the one you care about, would you please rest for me? Please ..." I heard her for the other line.
"Baby. I love you," I whispered sweetly.
And she can't remember anything, she didn't even realize that my face was familiar. Why is that? Why do I know what's happening to her but her? She doesn't even know my name that time. So I grabbed the chance to be with her again. I owned her and I stole a kiss from her. She doesn't know how much I was longing for her, all my longing I poured into that kiss. I was dying ... I was dying to taste her lips again.
To feel her soft lips crushed into mine, to taste her heavenly lips. To feel her soft body against me. I drowned in alcohol all my life to get rid of all the pain, but it all got worse when I saw that his head was getting worse every time we were together. I am slowly dying with the thought of her, forgetting about me. But it hurts more when he remembers everything, because I know he will be even more hurt when he finds out why he forgot everything.
I want to be with him, just touch me. Destiny is so mean to me, if destiny is really only human I will kill him over and over again. He tries to keep my baby away from us, he tries to keep us away while I try to avoid him because I've been fooled a few times. I cried every day when Eerrah was not with me, I wondered what if she had completely forgotten everything? What if his memory never came back?
That's why I owned her that fast. And everyday, my breath became normal. My life has become easier. I was always anxious just to see him. The best feeling in the whole world is when I am hugging her and kissing her. He is mine.
I can't really get over this feeling, this feeling of always wanting her near me. I tried, e. I tried to get him out of my mind while I was still abroad. I am 20 years old that time and she's 17 years old. I thought of looking for another woman because for the whole 17 years, she's the only girl I want.
But I can't find another woman. He is the only one and he is the only one I can see in my mind, his beautiful face, his addictive lips. The angel's voice. I tried, I tried to forget all my connection with him but I was stupid. Who am I kidding? Who am I talking about? Myself ... I only try to fool myself. I myself am hurting because of my stupidity.
Eerrah baby come back to me now. I'm slowly dying baby, I'm slowly dying.
I looked at my cellphone when it suddenly rang. Someone's calling me and I don't care, but when I saw the name of the caller. In no time did I turn over the cellphone and answer the call.
"We will talk tomorrow, so rest now. Please." Suddenly my ears tingled at what I heard. "What did you say baby?" I will ask.
"We will talk tomo--"
"Baby now! Let's meet--"
"Primo please, even just tonight. Understand yourself first, I'll get mad at you if you don't take a rest." I immediately went to bed when I heard that. "Baby I'm on the bed now, don't be mad baby."
"Damn you, you're making me cry. I want you to rest for now, tomorrow we'll talk." I immediately closed my eyes because I wanted to sleep. I want the whole day to pass and the next day. "Baby I'm going to sleep," I said to her.She didn't answer back but I know that she's still there.
Gradually, I became intoxicated, so I became drowsy.
"Primo I'm sorry for what I had said a while ago. I'll fix everything tomorrow, I promise you. Good night, Primo. Sweetdreams and dream with me." I smiled broadly. My baby, my precious Eerrah.