MARA'S POV
If I were to decide, I don't want to go home yet. I admit that I was so disappointed and hurt by what I heard between Maru and his dad.
I guess I expected too much. I really thought that Maru and I could live like a normal family. I expected too much from Maru.
Who am I kidding right?! I can never have a normal family because we all know that there is no love between me and Maru. And he is in love with someone else.
I even thought that maybe I can replace Jana in Maru's heart but I was wrong. I can never replace her.
Our marriage is just on paper. No matter what I do, the only person he loves is still her.
I didn't notice that my tears are falling again.
I can feel the pain in my chest, and this pain is very familiar to me. I felt the same pain when I found out about how my parents viewed my existence.
Flashback
I was about to go to my parent's room when I heard them arguing.
I was shocked because my mom and dad are shouting at each other. This was the first time I heard them quarreling. They never argue and they seldom talk.
I know that it's not right to eavesdrop and that I should leave them alone but I don't know why my feet don't want to move. I hide myself and I started to listen to their argument.
I can't understand anything about their argument. I don't know what is there arguing about until I heard my name. Hearing my name made me more curious and want to focus and listen more.
"I have already done my part in this freaking marriage. I already gave birth to Mara, so I have already done my part as your wife. You already have an heiress!" My mom shouted.
"What are you talking about? Heiress? Then you should have made her a guy, I need an heir, not an heiress!" My dad shouted back.
My chest felt heavy as I was listening to them. My tears fell nonstop. My dad doesn't want me because I'm a girl. And my mom only give birth to me because she was obliged to do it.
My mom smirked. "Really? Isn't it an advantage for you? You already arranged her marriage with Mr. Ottave's son. What was his name again? Maru?! Right! And after their marriage, your money, power, and influence will surely be the same with the Ottave."
End of flashback
I was still young at that time, but my heart already felt the pain of rejection and being unwanted.
And now I am feeling the same pain again. Pain because of rejection and being unwanted.
What I only want in this lifetime is to live a simple and normal life, not power, money, or material things. 
I just wanted to feel love and be loved because I felt like they deprived me of love.
Love from my parents...
And now, love from my husband.
But I think just like my parents, Maru's love will be impossible for me to have.
My husband is in love with someone else. And he is only with me because of obligation.
I felt so tired when I reached home. I just wanted to lie down and get some rest. I feel so drained.
When I enter the house I saw Maru waiting for me in the living room.
Maru went to me and hug me. I did not hug him back.
"Finally hon you are home!" He said worriedly.
I look at him with no emotion. I can't feel anything. I guess I'm back to my old self.
Maru looks at me intently. His hand went to my face and started to caress it.
"Hey, hon are you okay?" He asked sweetly.
I remained poker face. "I'm okay. I'm just tired. I'll just go to the room and sleep."
I was about to walk past him when he grabs my hand.
"I heard from my secretary that you were in the office." He said quietly.
I look at him with no emotion. "Yes."
"You heard us." He said as if he was so sure of it. 
"Yes." I just said. 
He turns to me and faces me. I can see worries and fears in his eyes but I chose to set them aside. Is he worried because he thought that I might do something about the love of his life?!
My heart hurt with that thought.
"Don't believe in dad." He said.
I just look at him showing no emotion.
"Hon, please don't believe him." He said pleading.
"I don't care." I sounded so bored.
Maru's eyes widen a bit of shock and confusion.
"Y-you don't c-care?" He asked again to confirm.
I smirk. "I think you've already forgotten that we just married for business. There is no love in us Maru. So if you want to continue your relationship with Jana, then go ahead. No one is stopping you and I don't care."
"I told you that you can continue your relationship with her even after our wedding, remember?" I added.
I can't control the words that come out of my mind anymore. I sounded so cold and unbothered. Even I was convinced that I really don't care about their relationship.
Maybe I'm just exhausted from all of this, that's why I can now easily accept the fact that there is no chance between me and Maru. And that I can never experience love... never in this lifetime.
Maru's grip on my hand weaken. It seems like he is still absorbing everything that I just said.
He look at me intently and asked. "You mean that?"
I saw the pain in his eyes but I chose to ignore it. I will not let myself be deceived again. I will guard my heart against him. I will never let him hurt me again.
Today's revelation is a big slap on my face. I should stop dreaming and face the reality.
"Yes. So if you'll excuse me, I want to go to my room because I am so tired and I want to rest."