The housekeeper tapped on the door and entered saying dinner was ready I followed her and went down towards the dining room.As I entered the dining room I saw Cathy and Mathias seated there and they both smiled at me as I entered. I did not see Ria, Marc's sister, and was told that I will be meeting her tomorrow as she had stayed back at the hospital. Neither of us spoke throughout the dinner as if we were fighting our demons. After dinner, Cathy told me to follow her to the library. Mathias excused himself and went off to his room.I sat on the sofa facing Cathy and asked. “What is it, Cathy?”Her dark eyes were steady. “Will you come to meet him tomorrow Carmen?”“I'm not sure I want to see him again as today everything came black in flashes and I am in an ocean of emotional turmoil,” I told her honestly. Seeing him after all these years had not been easy for me and I was not ready to face him any time sooner. Cathy shook her head and said.” He needs you, come to see him. I'm not asking for too much Carmen, just sit beside him, that's all that he needs.”I ran both hands through my hair and said. “Cathy has some pity for God's sake I can't do it. You know why I don't want to see him.You are asking for too much."“I wish I did not have to ask it of you but for me, Marc comes first, Carmen.” Cathy said." You know I can't see him like this,"“He always did , Marc comes first with everybody.” I said ironically. But what about my feelings I thought silently. “So bitter.” Cathy gazed at me her dark eyes wide. “ He has been unconscious most of the time since you visited him, so I did not think it was necessary to call you but he was awake when I was returning home and he was asking for you again.”My face went still, and I said. “You mean he still hasn't remembered anything?”Cathy shook her head.“I can't come, Cathy, when he's stronger you can tell him the truth,” I told him desperately. “And kill him.” The voice was soft but remorseless.“ I wouldn't do that !” I exclaimed. Oh lord, I hate him but I wouldn't want him to die.“You heard what he said the other day without you he wouldn't want to live.” Cathy said unhappily.I turned on my heel and my eyes looked at her accusingly. “ We both know he's lived without me for six years, he won't die now because he merely remembers that I am no longer his wife.” “He does not remember though and the shock of being told might cause some damage to him. The doctor has warned us not to give him any kind of stress or he might go into a coma again.” Cathy said flatly. “Marc is much stronger than that.” I laughed and said. “He's as tough as a rock. Nothing will happen to him.“ I know I am being selfish but now that I have seen him I am realizing a lot of things about me.“He was once but now he is very weak, very frail and tired of life. I refuse to kill him by telling him something he does not want to hear.” Cathy said stubbornly.I drew a shaky breath. “Doesn’t want to hear? What do you mean, Cathy?” “Carmen.” Cathy murmured. “You know precisely what I mean, Marc has not merely lost his memory, he is refusing to remember. It seems as if he wants to forget everything that happened in the past. He just wants to remember the happy times he has spent with you.” Moving restlessly, I said. “Why should he? I know what you are trying to do Cathy, but it won't work. You must accept that Marc and I are finished and have been for six years. His accident cannot alter that. In two months, I am getting married again you know that. My fiancé is waiting for me in Yorkshire.”Ignoring my last remark Cathy said huskily. “Marc is defending himself that is what the specialist said, he knows how he is. He's going back in time to the days when he was happy with you. It makes him feel safer it gives him a reason to live. I have seen how happy he was when you were with him.” I stood very still staring at her. “Do you know what you are saying, it isn't true right?”“My dear I am certain of it, Marc has not lost his memory entirely but he does not remember the memories of the years since he lost you. He has blocked it all.” Cathy pulled me and hugged me warmly, trying to comfort me. I sighed turning away and wrapping my arms around myself and said. “l will say the same, I can't go there again.” “Carmen please go and rest and have a good night please sleep and think about it and come with me tomorrow to see him. “Cathy told me pleadingly her eyes wet.“Okay Cathy, I'll think about it.” I saw that there was no alternative, so I agreed to go along with her. I might as well sleep it off.