I was too naïve and young to realize what I had let myself into but as people say love can make you blind and you will do anything to be the person you love and that's what I was doing trying to make myself acceptable in between them by being who I was and not wanting to become a person they wanted me to become.   I guess every relationship has its ups and down when they begin their new journey and I was ready to face all the challenges that come my way as Marc's love was enough for me to survive anything but I was so naïve to think like that.  And once I realized it shattered everything inside me and I was too young and inexperienced to know how to deal with it but I did try.Those first months of my marriage had been heavenly Marc had been an exciting lover, sensitive and aware of my innocence and very protective of it. The only barrier to perfect happiness had been his father very cold and hostile. Antonio Garcia had made no secret of the fact that he had wanted Marc to marry Bella Costa the daughter of his friend, Andrew Costa who was a very renowned businessman in Milan. And she would be perfect for Marc but Marc chose me.Bella always suppressed her jealousy and anger within herself in utter silence whenever she saw us together but the girl had always been very sweet all smiles and fluttering lashes in Marc's presence and Marc treated her with smiling indulgence, which always raised my eyes. I had suppressed my jealousy reasoning that if Marc had loved Bella he would have married her but jealousy is an instinctive reaction that reason cannot touch I feared and disliked Bella and it showed.When the pressure and strain of living in the Garcia household became too suffocating. I retreated to our flat a few hours away. I had given up my college to please Marc but I felt an enticing need to study further so enrolled myself in college and started living there.My father had always encouraged me with my studies so he supported me.Blade Taylor was my friend from college who had always supported me when I shifted to Milan to study architecture, but I got sidetracked and fell in love with Marc and got married. So I enrolled myself again and started my studies. As I needed to be independent and not always dependent on Marc for everything.Blade’s friendship had not pleased Marc he did not believe that a man could enjoy a women's friendship without wanting more and all though I had laughed at the notion that Blade was in love with me. Marc finally proved to me that his suspicions were correct.He came to my flat to pick my pick me up on his way to college. I kissed Marc on his cheeks and was about to leave, but Marc was very cunning he started kissing me on the lips. Then finally when he let me go. We both turned towards Blade who did not have the time to control his expression. But later Marc had said grimly, “You should avoid this man Carmen this man is crazy about you.”I had not answered because I could not think of anything to say. It had been a shock for me to realize Blade’s feelings. For the past two years, I had taught him as an older brother, and it was hard to think in the way he wanted me to do.”“You must never be alone with him again.” Marc had said sharply. And I knew he was being possessive.I protested and said, " How can I avoid him he is always at the University and we are classmates. We are bound to meet every day. But now that I know I will maintain some distance from him." “Join some other college at least it will fend him off and you can always move back to the villa, where he won’t even think of coming,” Marc suggested. And I shuddered at the thought of going back to the villa.“I love you but I cannot go back to the villa as it is your father's home and under his roof with your family. I'm not welcome there I feel like an intruder whenever I go there and as for my college you know this is the topmost college and I had great difficulty in enrolling myself back.” It had been the start of another long argument; Marc was not willing to listen to me and left the house in anger.The first few months of the bliss of life with Marc had been destroyed bit by bit by the attitude of his family and the difference in our ages, my own experience, and jealousy towards Bella. Who made it a point to get closer to Marc whenever she could.The trip to Seychelles had been the last attempt to regain the happiness Marc had suggested after one of the fights although we had been away for a long time and we were happy together. But when we came back to Milan the trouble had begun again. It was Antonio's birthday party and we had all gone to the villa to celebrate it and of course, Bella’s family was invited as well as they were family friends and couldn't be ignored.I was very tired because of the journey and backed off the party retiring to our room. I had slept for two hours and had woken up after midnight to hear music downstairs from the landing and had walked downstairs to see Bella dancing with Marc together to the sensual music her body was moving around Marc's in a seductive way and Marc was enjoying himself. I had gone to bed filled with jealousy and I was awake for a long time and it was three o'clock when I finally fell asleep but Marc had not yet come to bed, most of the guests had departed and we had a big fight and as soon as he came back.I came out of our room to see Antonio standing and looking at me with hatred and scolded me saying, “If you are jealous of Bella ask yourself why? Is it not because you know that she is the woman Marc should have married and not you? You are nothing but just an ordinary girl with no family background, you were very lucky to have convinced Marc to marry you. You despicable women! Get out of my house. No one needs you here. I had taken off my wedding ring and thrown it at him while Marc stood there in bitter silence.I had fled to our apartment, believing that Marc saw as his father did now and he regretted our marriage. During the long night, I had been having contradictory reactions, swinging between love, hatred, jealousy, and need. As the morning light seeped in, I went back to the villa to win my husband back again, whatever that cost.The image of what I had found haunts me to this day. Marc his face flushed in sleep his lids closed was lying entangled with Bella and the girl was smiling tauntingly as she looked across the room at me. It broke me into pieces the pain that scourged inside me was bearable. It had been a knife sliding into my stomach and I feel it even now whenever I think about it. I had known of course that there had been women before, but I had innocently believed Marc over and over again.I took a taxi and reached Naviglio a place where it is always crowded with people and I walked blindly not knowing what to do. I was lost as I had trusted him but he had brought that woman to our bed. How dare he! I was crying bitterly.After walking for hours, I realized that it was almost evening and I was in a deserted place. But thankfully I got a taxi and returned to our apartment.I was very tired and went off to sleep. About an hour later the doorbell started ringing. Thinking it must be Marc I went to open the door but when I opened the door all I found was Blade standing there and smiling at me.