"Just relax, Arrow. Your hands are shaking," Sabrina said worriedly as she caressed both of my hands.
I don't know how many times I bit my lower lip because of how much it felt. Eventually I will sing on stage which is what worries me, I don't know if my voice still sounds good because I haven't tried to sing again.
"Sab, I'm really nervous. I don't know how I'm going to get on stage later," I said tearfully while holding Sabrina's hand.
Saiko patted my back as she smiled sweetly at me. "Everything's gonna be okay, Arrow. Trust yourself, don't be nervous okay?" he was calming me down.
I took a deep breath as I hugged the two of them. I hope my performance is good, I don't want to fail everyone.
"We'll be sitting here, when you're nervous, just look in our direction," Miyuki said coldly while looking at me.
I nodded my head repeatedly. "Yes."
I just chose to look straight even though I was still weak and nervous. I touched my chest where my heart was to stop its rapid beating. The force of my chest throbbing with excitement.
"Just do well, Arrow, please," I silently said to myself.
A few minutes ago, each representative of his program began to perform. Some people dance, some others sing too and they're so great.
As I watched I couldn't help but get discouraged. I hope I finish my song well, with that, I can breathe.
I gasped when our professor pulled me on the way to the backstage. "Why are you still there? You're next, Arrow."
I bowed my head. "I'm sorry, I'm really nervous so I can't think straight."
He patted my shoulder, he also adjusted my clothes before looking back at me. "Just stay calm, especially when you're on stage. Imagine that you're doing this for your love ones, so just stay calm."
What he said seemed to help because he mentioned 'love ones'. Professor is right, I should just think that this is for my loved ones.
"Thank you, although the song I'm going to perform is a bit difficult, I'll do my best, professor." I smiled sweetly at him.
"Very good. Now go." At the same time he said that and then called my name.
I took a deep breath before slowly climbing onto the stage. It was dark all around but I could still see the way to the mic. All I can hear is silence, and I'm glad with that.
I closed my eyes tightly when the music started.
(Title of the song: Angel with a Shotgun)
"I'm an angel with a shotgun, shotgun, shotgun. An angel with a shotgun, shotgun, shotgun." At the same time I let go of the first line was the lighting of the surroundings.
My chest throbbed harder when I saw how many people were around. But I have to keep it up, besides, I'm already enjoying.
"Get out your guns, battles begun
Are you a saint, or a sinner?
If loves a fight, than I shall die
With my heart on a trigger. "I tightened my grip on my hand while singing.
I can hear the noise from the crowd, and they are cheering for me, it makes me even more courageous.
"They say before you start a war
You better know what you're fighting for
Well baby, you are all that I adore
If love is what you need, a soldier I will be. "I opened my eyes and met someone's eyes.
Those beautiful blue eyes.
"I'm an angel with a shotgun
Fighting til 'the wars won
I don't care if heaven won't take me back
I'll throw away my faith, babe, just to keep you safe
Don't you know you're everything I have?
And I, wanna live, not just survive, tonight. "I was just looking at him while singing those lines.
It seems like, this song turns out to be for him. For the guy I like, Froze.
"Sometimes to win you've got to sin
Don't mean I'm not a believer
And major Tom, will sing along
Yeah, they still say I'm a dreamer
They say before you start a war
You better know what you're fighting for
Well baby, you are all that I adore
If love is what you need, a soldier I will be. "I'm really willing to be a soldier for you, Froze. I'm willing to be a bad girl as long as I'm with you.
I stared intently into her beautiful eyes. I know deep inside me, I'm already breaking my rules and my walls. I promised myself that I would never like another man because daddy will be the first one I will love because he's my hero.
But looking at his eyes, this close. I think I already broke what I promised. I knew very well in myself how I really felt.
"I'm an angel with a shotgun
Fighting til 'the wars won
I don't care if heaven won't take me back
I'll throw away my faith, babe, just to keep you safe
Don't you know you're everything I have?
And I, want to live, not just survive, tonight
And I'm gonna hide, hide, hide my wings tonight. "
I'm starting to like you, Froze. And I'm already a bad girl because of that. I am already an angel ... with a shotgun.
I smiled to face everyone after the song. My herat fluttered when I saw how proud their faces are, I was almost deaf to the applause and shouts of my fellow students.
I'm glad I didn't cringe or faint from too much nervousness earlier while singing. I'm glad that he's here to make me calm with his beautiful eyes.
I turned in his direction just to blush, he just winked at me!
I quickly turned in the other direction so he wouldn't notice the redness on my cheeks. I also partially covered them so that not everyone could see.
I bowed and thanked everyone before leaving the stage.
"Arrow, you're so good--" I saw my professor approaching me but I just passed him while holding both my cheeks.
Sorry, professor. But I could no longer bear the thrill I was feeling.
It's just a wink, Arrow. It's just a wink!
Unbelievably I looked around with no human being. I can't believe that I've gone this far just to hide the redness on my cheeks.
I bit my lower lip. "Why are you so admirable, Froze? Tell me why."
"How many times do I have to tell you not to bother me, Arrow ?!" angry shout of a man sitting in a chair.
"Don't yell at me, dad, I'm here to come with you. I want to see Ayenna too," the woman in front of her said coldly.
He stared at her golden eyes before glancing at the child. "How dare you?"
The girl resisted her father's gaze on her. "Stop blaming me for Ayenna's death, until now you still can't get that out of your mind, sign?"
The man angrily slapped the table in anger. "You're answering me now! And who said I would stop? You're the reason why my Ayenna died! If not because of you, she should be the princess of Korea!"
The girl chuckled devilishly.
"It's not my fault if I'm the princess of this country, sign. You're so mad at me that it's as if I'm going to take the throne from you when in fact, you knew the palace rules well. You're already drowning in rage. you, "he promised with a smile.
The man, raging in fire, came closer to her. He pointed to his own son.
"Don't you dare insult me ​​inside my own room, Arrow. I can hurt you so don't challenge me!" He tried to hit his own daughter but the other one dodge it perfectly.
The girl quickly pulled the samurai behind her and pointed it at the father's neck. She grinned like a demon when she saw how pale his father's face was.
"I can easily kill you too, father. Without thinking twice. If I can think of pushing my hand on you, I will. So don't be brave in front of me because even if you are my father, I will kill you," she warned him .
The man swallowed in fear. She didn't know why she was afraid of her own child, but looking at her golden eyes, she knew the child was telling the truth. She can kill him if she wants to.
"I'm y-your father, you idiot," he replied angrily.
Arrow's eyebrows rose at what he heard, then he laughed as if what his father had said was funny. "Are you ... by chance ... my father? I've been wondering for a long time if you're really my father."
Angrily the man removed the focused samurai from him, he adjusted the tie while evilly staring straight ahead.
"I am your real father, Arrow, and you can't do anything about that. Besides, you won't kill your own father, right?" smiling male challenge.
Arrow shrugged her shoulders. "Unfortunately, Mesaion, you are really my father. But are you underestimating me now?"
"What?"
Laughing, the woman shook her head at the man. "I've killed thousands of people already who messed my sister's life. Killing is not new to me, Mesaion. So don't start me. I'll be really glad if your blood gets on my hands, but no I can kill you now. "
Mesaion clenched his jaw. He just stared at Arrow nuzzling the samurai he was holding, laughing as if he wasn't being threatened.
He's really sure that his daughter is already a demon, it doesn't seem to be on her knees every time 'murder' is mentioned.
"Leave, Arrow, leave my room!" he just shouted.
She shrugged her shoulders while grinning. "I'm sorry if I'm not available today, father. Don't worry, your death will be premature." He grinned devilishly as he closed the door.
Then she mouthed. "Maybe next time."
ARROW woke up from that nightmare. He let out a series of heavy breaths as he recalled the nightmare.
Dreaming that he opened the cellphone next to it to find out the time, when he saw that it was still early in the morning he was confused.
How many times did she ask herself why she dreamed of that thing, she's certain that it's her! He knew very well that she was that woman talking to another man.
But what amazes her the most is why she seems so different from her dream? He didn't seem to recognize himself because of its frightening voice and aura. But if only in the face and in the eyes, they're exactly the same.
What bothered him even more was the conversation between the two. They're talking about Korea and princess stuffs, but Arrow is sure that she hasn't gone to Korea even with her parents.
He sighed first before deciding to stand up. She came out of her room to drink water and get ready. She shouldn't be thinking of that nightmare, it really scares her a lot whenever she thinks of the voice of someone like her.
He swallowed the water directly, but that did not help erase the dream from his mind. That woman's voice, it's exactly the voice of the person who whispered to her when she attacked the man. Is it possible that the woman in her dream has a connection to him?
Or is that part of his past?
He shook his head several times before rinsing the used glass. She was about to go back inside her room when she remembered something. Two names.
"Mesaion." Anger welled up in his chest when he heard that name again. Mesaion is the name of that guy in her dreams, who is talking to someone who looks like her.
She wondered why she felt so angry for it.
"Ayenna," she whispered.
He was held in the chest for no apparent reason. When he mentioned that name, he could feel the pain. Her forehead furrowed as she struggled to remember who Ayenna was in her life.
But it's useless afterall, she has an amnesia so it's impossible for her to remember that name.
But he was only sure of one thing. Those two, they both have a big role in her life. So who are they? What have they got to do with losing his memory?
He looked at the glass he was holding, he slowly withdrew the glass until it fell to the floor and shattered.
She didn't flinched. She just stared at the broken glass on the floor.
"My parents are lying to me, I'm sure about that." He turned to the side where he could see himself freely in the mirror.
She took a step forward and take a look at her reflection in the mirror. He rubbed his eyes down to her cheek.
"Who exactly are you before you lost your memories, Arrow? Who are you?"