MARU'S POV
"Why did you come back so late? Why did you let me marry your brother?"
"If you just come back earlier, maybe this thing will not happen. Your brother will not be obliged to break up with her girlfriend. He will not be obliged to marry me. If you come back earlier, I will marry you instead of Maru. We will have a child and have a safe and normal delivery! Baby Tanya will not experience this!"
That statement from Mara keeps on repeating in my mind.
It hurts like hell.
It hurts to hear those words from my wife. Knowing that she regrets marrying me.
If she only knew how long I waited for this to happen.
Who am I kidding right?
From the very start, it was James who she likes and not me.
Ever since Mara was always aloof to me. No matter how hard I tried to approach her it does not affect her. Every time she will attend events in our house before, she will immediately find James.
I even thought that she was looking for me before. He's calling the name Maru, but she didn't know that we have 2 Maru in the mansion.
He never called me Maru before, because for her James is the only Maru that she knew.
I remembered before that she always gets pissed at me whenever I insist to her that my name is Maru.
Her aloofness worsens when our parents arrange their marriage.
I'm also shocked when I saw her avoiding James too. I felt a bit happy about her actions. I thought at that time that maybe she doesn't like the idea of marrying James.
When the truth is that, the reason why she acts like that is only because she thought that I am the one who is set to marry her and not James.
Then my dad and James have a big argument that leads my brother to left our house.
After he left, I went to my parents and told them that I will volunteer as Mara's replacement husband so that they will not lose face to the Almonte family.
Of course, I'm sad about my brother leaving us but at the same time, I'm relieved because now I have the opportunity to take his place as Mara's future husband.
I always liked Mara since we were little. She was the only girl that I like.
She was my puppy love, my crush, my infatuation, and my first love.
Jana was my girlfriend, but we did not last for a month because I don't want to fool ourselves. Because we both know that we didn't love each other.
Jana was in love with someone else. But it was just unrequited love. Just like my one-sided love with Mara.
We didn't mind telling people about our breakup because we want to see Mara and Alex's reaction when they knew about our relationship.
The reason why I am so pissed with Alex aside from the fact that he fell for my wife, is because he also hurt Jana.
He leads Jana on. The reason why I agreed to have a relationship with Jana. That is our way to comfort each other.
Jana knew how much I love Mara. That is why we decided to have a relationship. But sadly, it does not affect Mara and Alex.
It only increases the pain that I am feeling because it only proves that Mara will never like nor love me.
I tried to approach her but it does not affect her.
When the time she was introduced as my fiancée I can't contain the happiness that I am feeling at that time.
The more I go to know her and spend time with her, my love for her increased. Especially when I found out that she never tried to commit herself to someone else because she accepted the fact that she's mine.
"I will eventually marry you, so why do I need to have a boyfriend? I don't like to complicate things."
I can't help but smile whenever I remember her words. But it eventually vanished, when I learn the reason why she did not enter any relationship.
It pains me to hear how she sees herself. That she was not made out of love but because of business. That is why I promise myself that I will change her perception of family.
I want her to experience having a normal family. A family that loves one another.
When she confessed to me and told me that she loves me, I couldn't ask for anything because I feel so complete. To know that all my hard work pays off. It is worth the wait. Though I felt sad when I never heard her say "I love you" to me again.
I thought maybe she changed her mind, but her kisses assured me of her love for me, especially whenever we made love.
And then the news came. James is back!
I was happy but felt threatened at the same time. but I told myself that she already told me she loves me and I trust her word.
But I lose my confidence when I saw the longing in their eyes.
I felt like I'm back to what we were before when we were still young. I know that we were too young at that time, if you'll think about it, our feelings were too shallow.
After I heard Mara's explanation to James, I realized how deep her feeling was for Mara.
I saw regrets in her eyes that made my heart break into pieces. That is why I was not able to control myself and release all my frustration and irritation to Mara that night.
But I regretted it the moment I saw my wife bleeding and losing consciousness.
And lead my child in danger.
I thank God that he let my wife and my child survive. But I still feel sorry for what happened.
It is me who is to blame.
If I only considered Mara's situation at that time, I will not argue with her.
She will not bleed, and she will have a normal delivery.
I desperately wanted to turn back the time but I know, no matter how hard I tried, I won't be able to bring it back.
And now I am here beside my wife, but I feel like she's so far from me.
I hold her hand and place it on my lips.
"I'm a sorry wife. I love you so so much. Please don't leave me."
I don't know why I suddenly said that.
I felt so scared.
Her, leaving me is what scares me the most.
If I lose my wife I don't know if I can take it.