Chapter 64. Vega's Diary
"Goodnight!" greeted Vega weakly.

Then, Alberto slammed the door, which made Vega's eyes widen and her heart pound because she was so shocked. She really didn't expect that Alberto could act like that toward her.
Vega immediately felt very weak at that moment. She went into her bedroom. After that, she took out a pen and a diary, which she placed on the bookshelf that was located in the corner of her bedroom.

Then, she walked to her office, which was in her bedroom. Then, she put the pen and book on the table.
Then she started looking at the diary. The cover is pink with a ribbon attached to the top of the book cover, and there is a heart that reads "Vega and Alberto" in gold. She still remembered when she wrote the name "And Alberto" after she got married to Alberto.

She remembered the happy moments that had disappeared. After that, she immediately deleted the words "and

"There's no Alberto in my life anymore. There's only me. I'm here alone," groaned Vega in her heart.

Then, she turned page after page quickly because she didn't want to read about her happy moments with Alberto. For her, why should she read those moments that will only make her feel more sad and devastated?
She thought it was better to just skip it. She had thought of tearing, destroying, and throwing away the papers that had her happy moments with Alberto written on them. However, she wanted a memory for her sons in the future.

After that, she wrote down all her sad feelings. "Dear diary, I really didn't think that Alberto would get mad and angry with me again. He treated me so badly. He slammed the door and left me before I went to bed."

"I really didn't think he could act like that. I felt so broken when I accepted that. The romantic and affectionate feeling he had for me has disappeared since he met Lorena, the woman who destroys my household. She is a female demon that has taken away the happiness in my life."

Those are some fragments of the words that she wrote in her diary. After she wrote down all her feelings, Vega felt very tired that day.
Her head still hurt a lot, even though she had written down and vented all her feelings. After that, she took drugs that can help her sleep and calm down. After that, she waited for a while.

She wished that she could sleep that night. However, her heart was beating so fast.
She felt that the drugs she was taking had no effect. After that, she tried to understand her feelings and problems so that she could quickly find a solution and fall asleep.

She tried to find out about her very deep feelings. She felt that her sadness still filled her heart and mind, even though she had written down all her feelings in her diary. She felt that all the things she had done to write the story were in vain because it had no effect other than calming her feelings for a moment.

She realized this at the time, and she felt very weak because she had lost Alberto and Alberto, whom she had loved all this time.She had fought desperately to get Alberto's love and Alberto's attention, but it was all over.
She felt that there was no solution to her problem at that time. It's impossible for her to force Alberto to love her, and she just wants to get Alberto's sincere love, which she had before.

Vega had never felt so helpless before.Suddenly, she wanted to kill herself. Then she saw a large pink pair of scissors on her dressing table.

Vega took the scissors. Then she had thoughts of committing suicide.
Fortunately, she quickly realized her irrational desire to kill herself.Then she threw the scissors at the wall near her bedroom door. She immediately abandoned the intention because she was sure that she would feel a lot of pain and that she felt pity for her sons, who needed a mother figure.

"I'm sorry, Telmo and Tirso!" She spoke from her heart.After that, she took a pillow and burst into tears.

"Poor my sons! If I die by suicide, who will take care of me? They don't have a father figure. Can I let them not have a mother figure too? I can't be like that," said Vega in her heart.

Even though her children will have a mother who replaces Vega, namely Lorena or maybe another woman, will Lorena or another woman love Vega's sons as much as Vega loves them? Will Lorena or another woman care about Vega's sons and love them?
Of course not! Vega thought that she must be a strong mother for the sake of her sons.

"I must be strong for my children. If I'm not strong, who will take care of them? I must be a good mother and a good figure to my children." Those were the words Vega said in her heart.

After that, she remembered the faces of Telmo and Tirso, who had grown bigger and cuter. They're already good at talking, running, walking, and other things.
Their intelligence exceeds their age, so she is often called a lucky mother because she has very intelligent children. In addition, she is also called a smart mother because she can educate her children to be very smart.

Even though she has lost the husband she loved, at least she still has children who she loves and who love her. These thoughts calmed her, which made her soon fall asleep on the book while her hand was holding it.
When she fell asleep, she didn't hear any sound in her ears. That time, Vega really fell asleep because she felt very tired from her busy day.At that moment, Alberto, who pretended to be asleep, immediately took Vega's diary because she was actually secretly watching what Vega was doing.

"What did she write, anyway?She must have written bad things about me." Alberto said in his heart.

He felt very sure that Vega would write bad things about Alberto and tell anyone who Vega wanted to tell. Therefore, he thought to read the contents of the diary before he knew the contents of the diary and before he heard bad rumors about him.
So if later there are bad rumors that come from Vega's diary, he can tell that it's just a rumor written by Vega because Vega feels very upset with him. Because of that, he immediately woke up.

Then, he walked slowly to Vega's diary place. He made sure that Vega would not wake up.
He was afraid that later Vega would feel annoyed and scold him if she found out that he was trying to read Vega's diary. When he was near the place of Vega's diary, he tried to take the book slowly from Vega's head, who was sleeping on the book, and Vega's weak hand grip.

After that, he immediately opened and read every page of Vega's diary. Alberto paid attention to every detail of the decorations in Vega's diary.
There are pictures of stars, hearts, and notes. There are also additional stickers that make the diary even more interesting. He didn't think that Vega was such a feminine woman before.

"Ah! While she's asleep, I can read it!" said Alberto to himself after he read a few pages.He continued to read stories about Vega's struggle to get Alberto's love, the happiness that Vega had gone through so far with Alberto, her happiness when she married Alberto, their happiness, their children, and others.

"Telmo and Tirso, if later you find and read this book, it means that you are adults, and it's time to know the problems of your father and your mother first. I'm sorry, Telmo and Tirso. I can't bring you beautiful love stories like in the movies! Even so, don't think that everyone in this world is the same!"

"No. Every person is different. There are still many good people in this world. Find that person! Love that person and don't play with her heart and feelings! I don't want to have sons who like to play with other women's feelings. I don't know if you will read this story while I'm still alive or when I die.No one knows someone's age."

"All that happiness disappeared when I found out Alberto was having an affair with another woman, Lorena. I understand how Alberto feels. He still loves Lorena. I understand and I know that Alberto doesn't love me. He only loves my money. But can't he love me a little? After his affair with Lorena, he is still able to lie and evade me by saying he isn't having an affair."

"Every time I ask him about his affair, he is always angry and answers curtly. Once he leaves me because he is very upset. I understand that there's no man in this world who will just confess to his wife when he is having an affair with another woman behind his wife."

Alberto looked at the pages of the diary sadly. During this time, he never understood the reason Vega did some things he didn't understand, such as not giving him breakfast lately before Vega's attitude changed, always telling him to study, and others.
Vega knew Alberto had GERD disease, which is why he always told him to eat breakfast.Vega wants Alberto's illness not to recur.

Regarding the reason Vega didn't give Alberto breakfast, she hoped Alberto would make breakfast for her or maybe give it to Vega. Another thing was that, at that time, her body felt so weak and tired. However, that didn't happen, and it makes Alberto even more annoyed with her.

"I'm so happy when he gets good marks. I know he's a smart student, but he's lazy. Because of that, I always tell him to study, even though I always face his nagging because he is so lazy to study. But, look! He gets one hundred on my course."

"Not only that, his grades also rise dramatically in other courses. Many professors tell me that I'm a great professor, but I always say, "I'm not great." Indeed, Alberto is a great student and a smart student! Indeed, that's true, and I am proud of him!" After that, there are photos of Alberto's value, which has increased dramatically from before.

He never thought that Vega would love him so much. He often assumed that Vega only wanted him for sex and to express her lust.Sometimes Alberto thinks that Vega doesn't love him because of Vega's indifferent attitude towards him, her fierce attitude towards him in class, etc.
Everything he knew about Vega flashed through his mind.Suddenly, his tears fell. He felt guilty for having an affair with Lorena.

"I feel really guilty.I shouldn't have had an affair with Lorena," Alberto said to himself.

At first, Alberto just wanted to vent his lust on Lorena because Vega didn't want to have sex with him and he wasn't strong enough to hold his lust anymore. He assumed that because Vega no longer loves him, she no longer wants to have sex with him.
He also believed that Vega was self-centered and only cared about her own interests for a brief moment.Apparently, after reading stories about Vega's trauma, who still felt afraid to have children, and Vega's disease, he began to understand the feelings of Vega's trauma and Vega's illness.

"I feel very scared and traumatized having sex with Alberto. I really want to have sex with him, but my vagina always hurts after giving birth. I don't understand what's the matter. I've tried various drugs and consulted with Doctor Chico, but my vagina still hurts. Until recently, my vagina didn't hurt, and I asked Alberto to have sex with me, but he doesn't want to have sex with me anymore."

He understood that Vega was traumatized and hurt. Not to mention that Vega discovered Alberto and Lorena's affair.
He really didn't know if it would plunge him into new problems. He felt sorry for doing all that.

"What do I have to do to get Vega to forgive me?" He asked himself. Then he thought of finding a way to apologize to Vega.

"What is it? That's enough! I'll think about it again tomorrow!" said Alberto in his heart.

Then, he left the book in its original place. He returned the book's position to its original position. Then, he walked to his bed and he fell asleep when he was on the bed.