Desiree's POV
I'm so lost in myself right now that I've locked myself in my room and gotten into the shower, where I'm letting the water flow over my body while my mind spins and As I think about what just happened to me; my breathing is heavy as I wailed, and I can feel the heat tears pouring down my cheeks.
I feel the fear and tremendous hatred towards George; I trust him to be my friend and a boss, but he is not, and as a victim of him, I cringe and feel helpless when I think about the women he has truly raped. I can't believe a man like him would rape a woman forcibly and then tell her to quiet up or else he'll murder them.
I sat on the cold, hard floor, holding my knees, till the door opened and Alexander lifted the shower curtain to find me in a miserable position. He puts a towel on me and carries me to my bed; I'm sobbing and panicking; I'm not sure why I'm feeling this way; perhaps I have a serious mental illness that needs to be resolved; it's not funny to be an almost rape victim; you feel disgusting about yourself every time you remember how he touched and licked your body parts.
"Are you alright?" He asks me with a cold tone, he is not happy to see me and neither do I.
I sobbed and leaned my head on his chest, he embrace me with his warm arms and sighed, "I am sorry, I know I am not in the right position to ask you if you're okay."
"I am not okay…" I said in a shaking voice and trembling lips.
"I know honey…what do you wnat me to do to make you feel better?"
"If you just leave me alone, I'll be alright. I'm in desperate need of some alone time." I murmured and backed away from him. He sighed and walked away, saying nothing and closing the door quickly without saying anything.
He's dissatisfied with what happened to me as well, and he told me that he wants to kill George inside the prison, but I stop him since it's not acceptable and let the justice or karma do the work.
Suddenly my phone rings and without looking who is the caller is. I answered the call quickly,
And I just heard the high-pitched voice of my sister saying, "Hi, where are you now little sister? I just checked your apartment and you are not here, The poor kitty doesn't have any food, where are you and what happened to you?"
I can't move a single muscle in my body while pondering what I should say to her.
"C-can you just take Xander with you and just leave my apartment?" I said.
"Wow, great, I miss this cat but tell me where the hell are you? Mom and dad are worrying about you."
"Tell them…I am fine, I will be back in one week to see you guys…"
"But, what happened?"
"Bye Patricia…" I hung up the call and sighed. I close my eyes and wondered, how this pain and fear will end? How can I handle this?
I sighed again, take a deep breath while thinking that this could be over soon.
I open the closet and see that it is full of clothes that Alexander bought for me; they are all new and have a price tag that I know I won't be able to afford on my current salary.
F*ck that salary, I don't have a job now. I am jobless and hopeless b*tch.
I choose a turtle neck dress and tried to open the window to sniff some good fresh air while closing my eyes, I looked down and I saw Alexander outside sitting there and stare at me with his worried eyes.
I groaned and glanced away as he tried to stare into my eyes; I closed my window and locked my door; I don't want him to sleep with me tonight because I feel so bad about myself; I am not happy with this kind of circumstance; I am irritated and frustrated.
I dived on my bed and close my lampshade and tried to close my eyes and getting ready for sleep now, I need to rest my mind and I want to forget all just by sleeping.
The Next Morning,
I woke up with a heavy arm on my body embracing my petite body on my bed, I turned my ehad and gasped, how did he enter the room?
I bit my lower lip and woke him up, "Why are you sleeping here?"
"G-good morning." he groaned while closing his eyes and tried to snuggle his body to mine but I pushed him, "Please I need to go to pee…"
"Please don't be mad at me, I am not your enemy."
"I'm not angry with you... But please realize that I've gone through a lot of worries concerning myself," I whispered to his ear and kissed his cheek, "I want to know the case of George, did he get out of prison? I'd like to know what happened to Evon as well, because I've never had the opportunity to ask about her since what happened to me," I exhaled and stared at him.
"Maybe we should talk about this later, we need to take our breakfast now." He said and he was about to kiss my lips but I moved away, "Sorry, I can't…" I said and smile at him, I walked to the bathroom and I can hear him groaned in disappointment,
"I'm sorry…" He said.
"It's okay…" I respond as I brush my teeth and wash my face.
"The doctor will going to check on you today, do you want?"
"I am not ready to communicate with a doctor yet, please don't forced me." I said and dried my face, then turn to face him.
"I'm sorry about that."
"Stop saying sorry, I'm okay."