Like how we left our room, Klevon swoops into it through the window. He deposits me on the floor and I beam at him. I feel like it's the first time I smiled since I lost my baby.
"Thank you," I say.
Crouching on my windowsill, he says, "Turn around."
I did and I find Theo sitting on the chair of my study table. His eyes transfer from me to Klevon and back again.
"What is this? Where you've been?!" he asks, suspicious.
An introduction to his pain and anger. I shift my attention to Klevon and say, "You should leave."
"He is angry. I think I should stay."
"Leave!" I order.
Besides, I don't want him to see this. I doubt Theo's love for me is real, but I never doubt the depth of his possessiveness over his whore-me. I braced myself for his jealousy. Yet, I am more afraid of myself. If he pushes me, if he forces me into the bed, I doubt that I can fight the mate bond. I will cry and struggle, but nevertheless, my body will enjoy it. And that debasement is something that I don't want Klevon to witness.
"But, Kaiya-"
"I say, leave, Klevon! Did you not hear me?!"
Klevon groans. "If ever I hear your cries for help, I am warning you, I will charge in here."
"Just go!"
He makes another grunt, activates his magic, and rides on the hover. When he's gone, I face Theo.
"What are you doing here again? It's still too early in the morning," I start.
"Since when have you been seeing Klevon?" he asks instead.
"You should know that. You're the one who sends him to different missions."
To show that I am not afraid of him, I move towards the door, walk past him and open it. I find Meeghan standing outside.
"Meeghan, can I ask for my breakfast?"
"How about the King, Miss Kaiya?"
"He will NOT eat here," I say, making my voice louder so he will hear my voice.
I close the door again and face him. "So, what are you doing here?"
"I want to spend more time with you."
I snort. "Early this morning?"
"I can also eat lunch with you if you want me to. And dinner too. Every time I have a break, I can come to find you. All you need to-"
"Stop! Why are you really here, Theo?"
He cocks his head at me and asks, "What do you mean?"
"You are not going to play coy with me! I know that you already have pregnant women from your harem! Are you expecting me to welcome you back in my bed?!"
He clasps his hands together and says, "I am hoping you will love me again."
"Why?!"
"Because I love you. It's common to hope for reciprocation. Although, if not, it's okay too. As long as you stay with me."
"Why?!"
"Why what?"
"Why do you love me?!"
"I told you, I've fallen in love with you when I was young. I admired you for a long time."
"Because I was your teacher, right?"
"No! It's more than that."
"Then what?!"
"I-" he blushes. "Well, you…"
"What?!" I ask again, impatient.
"You're the one who arises my sexuality."
My lips twitch. "So, I am a rotten teacher?!"
"It's not that. It was your estrus. And your mate did not arrive and…"
Oh damn. She's seen me during my estrus?! Ain't that the time we are horny the most for our mate?!
"I mated before? Who was it?"
"I don't know. I only have his name. You keep everything about him from me, even when you…" He looks away again.
I take a deep sigh. What the hell is my past self-thinking?! Did I just destroy a child's mentality as his teacher?!
"What did I make you do, Theo?"
"You let me touch you."
Touch me? F*uck! I am a rotten teacher.
"And you orgasmed."
I pale. Somehow, I can imagine a young Theo pleasuring me during my estrus. I hit my head. That is some sexual awakening alright.
"You thought I was your mate. You are calling his name and I acted like I was him."
"What name?" I ask. Somehow, I can't imagine another mate except for Theo.
"Adan," he answers. "That's all I know about your previous mate."
I'm sure he's dead now. Besides, I will not mate with Theo if he's still alive. Also, estrus is stronger when our mate is another werewolf. But more than that, there is a more pressing matter.
"So you fall in love with me because I was your teacher and I caused you to be like this?" I ask, my voice softening.
"You changed my path. I am not a well-mannered student," he admits. "And you also saved my life, literally."
My frown deepens again.
"When you are sent to the hunting park, it's because you tried to save your students."
"So when you got older, you tried to pay your debts and save me from the park," I say.
I go to the divan and sit. I thought I was just his simple, ordinary teacher, but seems like I'm more than that for him. I become quiet for a while.
"Am I forgiven now?" he asks.
I look exasperated at him.
"Kaiya, I know that I squandered my chance with you. But please, give me one more chance."
I look at him. "Knowing that you are my previous student, somehow, I feel more and more dirty for mating with you."
"There is no need to feel like that!" He takes my hand in his. "Werewolves just age slower than humans. But we are the same."
"I won't grow old with you. You will become an old man, and I will still look like a middle-aged woman."
"It doesn't matter to me! If you also don't care about it!"
He touches the back of my hand to his forehead and says, "Now that you know, I will say it again. Since, a long time, I have always loved you, Kaiya. I might have thought of you as my teacher before, but as time passes and we converse more and more. As we get closer to each other, I fall more and more in love with you. Even now, you are still the only one who makes my heart jump like this."
He touches my cheeks and is about to kiss me when I evade.
"If you think that I have already forgiven you just because you told me how you fell in love with me, then you are wrong," I say.
"Then, tell me how…"
"Break the mate bond with me."