I refuse the new handmaid, which I am regretting now. They are useful for moments like this, days when I don't want to get up from bed. I don't want to learn from Harbin. I don't want to browse any books. Thankfully, it is Saturday, and I may do nothing.
I take a deep breath and force myself to sit up. I am still in the light purple dress I wore last night. Stupid move. I should have at least changed my clothes. Dragging my feet towards the door, I call for food.
I remove my clothes and step into the bathroom. I wash. If Theo won't come today, I can just practice magic. My lightning magic has become easier to control. Klevon said that I can start learning water magic.
Finishing up, I walk out of my bathroom, wrapped in only a towel. Breakfast is inside my room, and so is Theo. His eyes shift towards me. And remembering how he looks happy with the other women last night, I let go of the towel and let it drop on my feet.
His features darken in desire as he rakes my body.
"Good morning to you too, my dear Kaiya."
He gets up from the chair and moves closer to me. I look up at his face. He has already shaved.
"So, you want to be devoured first?" he whispers, his hands lightly touching my side.
In a quick movement, he lifts me and drops me on my bed. He immediately removes his clothes and I help him with them. Both naked on my bed, I reach for his face to kiss him.
Ah! So sweet. I thought as I taste his mouth. Memories of his erect member, while he is with his harem, come into my head. I pull back from his kisses. I shake my head as I remember how other women can also give him pleasure.
"What's wrong?" he asks.
I make a tentative smile, as my hands slide to his length. He groans especially when I lightly touch its top.
"Kaiya, stop…"
I look at his member. It's sticky, and I realize that the substance is his fluid. I swallow looking curiously at it. He always gives me unimaginable pleasure every time he licks and sucks on my womanhood. Is it the same with men?
I push him to the bed and I sit astride him. But impaling myself in his shaft is not the plan. I kiss his chin and lick his chest. My kisses go downward, from his chest all the way down. Just like what he always does with me. I just really hope it's the same with men.
I lick his muscles, taste his six-packs, and when I am looking straight at his manhood. I feel my courage leaving me. It is huge and throbbing and there is fluid on its edge. I touch it and Theo groans. Then I lick its top, earning a mad howl from him.
He likes it. As I watch him shudder in my bed. Without a moment longer, I put his length on my mouth, but it's too long that it prods on my throat. I can't put all of him in my mouth.
"Kaiya, oh goddess," he whispers, his head leaning back.
I force his length on my mouth, but then I almost gag. I immediately pull back and he groans in pain.
"Did I do it wrong?" I ask.
"Don't graze it with your teeth." He sits up and places his length on his hands. "Do this with your mouth. Those that can't fit, you can use your hands," he instructs.
I blink. I place a strand of my hair on the back of my ear. I am about to put him in my mouth when he reaches for my hair and interlaces it into his fingers. I look up questioningly at him.
"Kaiya, if you don't want to do it, you can still back out."
"But will this make you happy?" I ask.
He reddens and nods. "Yes, that's why I am making sure your hair is out of the way."
Without a moment longer, I put his throbbing manhood in my mouth. I taste him, but I ignore it. Instead, I follow his instructions. I move my head back and forth, at the same rhythm as my hands. He starts to groan and his hold on my hair tightens.
But I continue, I impale my mouth on his manhood, making sure that my teeth won't hurt him. His body shudders and I enjoy the effect of what I am doing to him. Suddenly, he pulls on my hair. He releases and his fluid squirts on my chest and some on my mouth. I wipe it away, including my tears.
"Is it okay? Did I give you pleasure?" I ask.
He cups my face, and he gives me a long kiss. "I enjoy every bit of it," he whispers.
"I can do it again," I say.
"If you plan to kill me early this morning, then go ahead."
"Kill?"
He kisses my mouth again and adds, "Because you make me crazy. I feel like I am dying of pleasure every time I am with you."
Then he lifts my body and makes me sit on his entire shaft. I groan and my hand automatically goes around his neck.
"Move for me, Kaiya."
I did. I move up and down his entire length, as he stares at my face. He supports my back, every time I arch it, as the pleasure courses through my body. It didn't take long before I reach my climax again.
"Is there something else I can do to give you pleasure?" I ask, while my arms are wrapped around his neck, and he is still inside of me, deliciously throbbing and spilling his seed inside.
"There is, actually. But I don't think you are ready for it yet."
I look at his face, my fingers trailing every crevice in his face. "I want to see it."
"Tonight, maybe. Come to my room. For the meantime…" He shifts and makes me lie on my back. "I want to devour you first."

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At night, I tiptoe to his room. He might have heard my footsteps because he opens the door before I knock. He pulls me into an embrace and kisses me, as he kicks the door close. I pull away and look around his room. This is the first time I ever walked into his room. I didn't expect it to be all white, with a massive bed, dresser, a table, and a chair. There is a sword on the wall, but that's it. It is almost bare, very unlike my over-decorated room.
I shift my attention back to him. He is only wearing a robe, while I wear a nightgown.
"So, are you going to show it to me?"
"Look at the bed, Kaiya."
I did. His bed is white and brown, so I almost didn't notice the brown rope on top of it. When Theo starts to grope my chest, I push my body against him.
"I only see a rope," I say.
"It's for bondage," he whispers, his breath tickling my ears. "I have so much more, but this will do."
I feel nervous. "I don't know what that is…"
"You will be naked. I tie the rope around you. And we'll make love. It's kind of a play. Since you're bound, I will give you sexual pleasure," he seductively whispers, as his fingers go down my crotch.
"Ain't that painful?"
"It won't be. I have made sure the rope won't hurt you."
"I will be the one restrained?" I ask.
"Yes. Unless you know how to do it? We can change roles."
I shake my head.
"Then, for now, I will do it. You will be the receiver, I will be the giver."
I pause.
"Should we start?" He pulls me to his bed, but I stay rooted on the spot. "Just say no and I'll stop."
I hug myself and whisper, "I don't want to be tied up."
He caresses my cheeks. "All you need to do is trust that I will give you pleasure, rather than pain. You do trust me, right?"
I look up at his eyes. Instead of the fluttery feeling accompanied by sexual activity with him, I sense fear and trauma.
"I-"
He kisses my mouth. "We can try. Maybe you'll like it," he suggests. "Come."
I sit on the bed. He helps me take my clothes off, while he kisses every bit of my skin. It's probably to calm me down and to remove all my anxiety about doing this with him.
He pushes me down on the bed and spread my legs, exposing me to him.
"Your hands, Kaiya."
I stretch my hands towards him, and he ties my wrist to a rope. My heart pounds hard in my chest. I feel like my blood is draining faster than I thought.
"It will be fine, Kaiya," he assures me, kissing the side of my cheeks.
But when he pulls my arms and ties my wrist together with my outside ankle. I start to panic. I squirm on the rope, as unfamiliar memories rise in my head.
"Kaiya?" he asks.
I pull sharply on my bound wrist and ankle. I grimace, as I feel it getting even tighter on my skin.
"No, oh please, Theo, no…" I start to cry. "I don't want this, please…"
He moves quickly. He removes the rope around my wrist and ankle. Once free, I ram myself to him. I wrap my arms around his neck and whimper, "I can't do it. I'm sorry."
He pulls back from me and gives me small kisses on my face. "Don't worry, Kaiya. It's fine."
I cry. Even if I'm the one who asked him to show me. And now I am backing off. He massages my back and I relax in his arms.
"I'm sorry…" I say. I can't give him a child, and now, I can't give him this kind of pleasure? I am such a mediocre lover.
"Shhh, it's fine, Kaiya. I didn't think. Of course, being a werewolf, you'd be afraid of bondage."
"What else?" I ask. "How else can I please you?"
He grins and lightly touches my hair. "Make love to me all night," he whispers. "No toys. Just our bodies."
I nod. Then I wrap my arms around his neck again and pull him into another searing kiss, something that makes both of us breathless.