After breakfast and bath, I go to the sunroom, with the help of a servant who ushers me towards it. I sit on the couch overlooking the massive garden in front. Over half of its walls are made of glass with creeping vines on the glass roof that serves as a shade to the room. The wall behind me is the only solid structure in the room.
Alone and uncomfortable, I raise my feet on the couch and hug my knees to my chest. The sunroom is on the second floor, and even if the garden is beautiful, I just can't help but be anxious. This really is not a place for a werewolf.
The door opens and Theo comes in. I notice him taking a breath, but I look away. I sense him coming closer.
"Kaiya…" he says.
I can hear the love in his voice, but his actions speak otherwise. Leaving me for a month without a word? I don't think that's love. Nowra says that she and her mate can't even be apart for a week.
Then he sits on the couch in front of me. I watch him. He is tapping his feet with his hands together. He is staring at me. Conscious, I sit properly this time.
"You call for me?" I ask, breaking the silence between us.
Abruptly, he comes closer and pulls the coffee table away from me. Then he kneels before me and wedges himself between me. He buries his face in my skirt and takes a lungful of my smell. I redden, even if I know that it should be the wrong reaction. Him, being my mate, stirs my heart, makes me horny for him, and just a simple gesture, can make my desire for him spiral out of control.
"I am sorry," he whispers. His voice is muffled by my dress.
I didn't make any move to touch him, even if I want so much to caress the back of his head and stroke his long, black-violet hair.
"I am sorry I didn't tell you that I can't meet you for a month," he confesses. "I should have told you. I shouldn't have made you this distressed."
It's just three weeks though. What is he doing here then?
"My Generals. I can't be alone with you in fear that I will impregnate you. And we've done it a lot already."
I swallow and in a soft voice, I say, "So, I can't get pregnant with your child?"
"You can. But it should not be my firstborn. Not my second or third. I need to have multiple children with other women before you bear me a child."
I flinch. Just as I thought, it still hurts even though it's not entirely his fault. He needs to do this for his position, or is it really just because of his position? How will I know if he didn't enjoy all those moments with other women?
I try to remove his arms around me, but he tightens his hold, as if there is a desperation in the way he holds me.
"I love you so much, Kaiya," he whispers. "Now, that I found you. Now, that for the first time, you see me as your mate. I can't let this go. I don't want to f*uck this up."
"You don't feel the mate bond, Theo," I interject. So, there's no reason for him to love me like this.
"Which makes me worried. You say that I am your mate. But… I don't have proof of that."
I try to move away, but I am in his tight grip. He looks up at me as if wanting to ask something from me.
"Kaiya, can you perhaps-"
"How about Klevon? Is he in prison?"
He clenches his jaws. "Yes, he's free. Both Brandon and Harbin vouch for him. They say nothing happened between the two of you."
"You could have asked me about that."
"But you-" he stops.
After a long pause, I ask, "Before I go to the hunting park, did you meet me, Theo?"
He looks concerned, but then he answers, "Yes. You are my teacher before. In high school."
"And?" I ask, wondering what happened between us before we meet again at the park. Werewolves age slower than humans, so he may be a young man back when we met.
"You taught me everything before they discovered that you are a werewolf. Then, I lost you. I am weak then. I don't have the power to help you."
I lean on the couch. So I am living among humans then? "How was I discovered?"
"You got injured and unconscious. When the nurse checks you, they sent you to the hunting park instead."
"You and I? What's our relationship?"
"I have a one-sided crush on you," he admits. "And you… I think you had a different mate. But I am never certain."
Right now, I can't even imagine having a different mate from him. But if it is true and since I mated with Theo, that means my previous mate is already dead. Somehow, I am thankful I forgot about that. Losing Theo, I don't even want to imagine that.
"Kaiya," he begs. "I want you to touch me."
He looks expectantly at me. This look. Probably, this is just an admiration for his previous teacher.
Teacher, huh? Is that why Harbin is telling me ‌I browse through books swiftly? Maybe I have already read and understood them in the past that all I am doing is refreshing my head with the information.
Because I didn't move, Theo reaches for my hand and places it on his cheek. He closes his eyes and envelopes my hand with his.
After a while, he opens his eyes. His features darken in desire. I didn't speak and so he says, in a guttural tone. "I want to touch and kiss you."
"You can't do that. That's exactly the reason ‌you didn't see me for a few weeks."
"Touch and kiss me then."
"There's no difference," I say.
I look at the glass wall behind him. I think the only reason they let us meet is if we are meeting in the sunroom. People and servants might pass, and even if we are on the second floor, they can still see us. I'm sure that servants are also behind the closed door. "Besides, this is not a private room."
He raises himself and is about to kiss me when I evade his mouth. Suddenly, he kneels before me and pulls up my skirt.
"What are you doing!?!" I exclaim.
He pulls my underwear down as he continues to pull up my skirt. "I want you to remember how I give you pleasure while we are apart from each other," he says. "I want to be the only one who can make you scream."
His hands grope on my inner legs. I try to remove his searching hand while I look at the door and beyond the glass walls. Then, I feel his fingers in my crotch. I squeal. It's been such a long time.
When he grabs my nether region, my lower body begins to throb. And then he rubs and circles around my clit. I cover my mouth to stifle the moans. Both angry and ecstatic that I am being overwhelmed, once again, by my pleasure.
Suddenly, his middle finger enters my entrance, digging deeper into me, that I can't help but grab tightly on his arm. He continues until his palm is flat on my crotch.
"Ah, Theo," I say, struggling once again under his ministrations.
"Feel it, Kaiya," he says. "Right now, I can't fill you with my seed, so this is the best I can give you."
He pulls his finger and pierces inside me again. I let out a moan while holding tightly to his muscular arm. The penetration did not stop. The way he thrusts his finger inside me only becomes faster, rougher. I hear the wet sounds, of his fingers gliding inside me, my moans, and his grunts. It is exhilarating that finally, I convulse on the couch. Pleasure. I am being drowned by it again.
When my trembling stops, he pulls my skirt up, and instead of his fingers, he licks my throbbing mound. The sudden action makes me collapse on the couch again.
"Theo, wait, not, ah!"
Another searing heat blinds my vision, but he licks it all. He tightly holds my legs and puts them on his shoulders. His tongue deepens into my insides, sometimes lapping and circling, but all the while, I am forgetting myself in ecstasy.
No longer caring about who hears and sees us. I grab onto his head as my body bends unnaturally on the couch, my butt sliding on it. His muscles flex as his tongue continues its ministration in my crotch. My voice doesn't seem to be mine anymore. My heat quivers as my fingers tighten on his hair. I drench the couch and my skirt, and yet his mouth is still on my quivering mound.
An unbearable sensation racks my body, and fireworks blur my vision once again. Finally, he stops and studies the way he makes me feel. As my tremors die down, I feel weak. It is too much. Why am I feeling this more pronounced than the first time?!
Theo wipes my juice off his mouth and face. Weakened, I still try to gather myself up, and then I notice the bulge in his pants. I look at him. Gingerly, my hand reaches for him.
"I can help," I say.
"There's no need," he responds.
Then, he lifts my body and makes me lie on the couch. He opens his pants and situates himself between my legs.
"Wait, I thought we can't do this?"
He makes a salacious grin and then kisses the middle of my brows. "Then, lower your voice, my dear Kaiya."